Happy 2005!  Recently, in work on the book, and yes, it is taking more time than my ego would like, I realized that I was confusing passion with anger.  Cognitively, as you read this statement, you can say, "Of course there is a difference between passion and anger."  I would have said the same thing.  It wasn't until I looked at my body that I got a clear picture of my truth.  What I was missing was that although I was verbalizing a difference between passion and anger, my body was feeling the same thing.  This was so subtle that you would never have known me to be angry.  I didn't know that I was angry!  So, If I told you that I was passionate about something, it really meant that I was angry.  I was using my "passion" as motivation.  I was using my "passion" to get things accomplished.  What I really needed to state was that I was using my anger to get things completed.  This choice of motivating energy caused me to open up many energy paths, which I now need to shift.

     I created a problem for myself by using anger as motivating energy.  It is not that anger need to be judged as "bad", however the choice of using it as I had, did not produce the outcomes I desired.  In fact, it was creating more of the undesired outcomes, the ones of which I was trying to be rid!  This happens because if you build your sense of passion on resistance (anger is all about having something to push on or resist), it is impossible to let or release whatever issue you are fighting against.  For example, let's say that someone tells me that I am not capable of acquiring some type of educational degree.  I build up the anger energy and make the decision to "show them".  In order to keep my source of motivating energy (anger) flowing, I will need to keep pushing against "them" in order to keep the "passion" going to complete the degree.  In other words, be setting-up this energy game, I am begging this person to keep telling me that I am not competent enough to finish this degree.  I am literally asking to keep that which I don't desire in my life because of my choice.  How many agreements exist in your life that are based upon pushing against?  How often have you used anger as a motivating energy thinking that it will bring you what you desire only to find that is sets up the requirement that you keep whatever it is you don't want in your life?  As you are contemplating this person you are becoming in 2005, see if there is the possibility that things, people issues are still hanging around because you continue to push against them or you need the energy of them pushing on you to move you through your creations.  Come take the journaling workshop either in person or by phone and learn how to stop this set up.